So devastatingly, things didn’t go to plan. I only produced one egg and unfortunately it didn’t fertilize – so we didn’t even get to put anything back – so basically our first round was a cancelled IVF. Ug it’s just such a numb feeling of disbelief, tears and frustration.
A week down the line I’ve begun to feel positive again – exercising again helps and I guess one needs to throw yourself into the things you can’t do on a IVF cycle… so I’m running again which I love and just keeping generally healthy – I went for my first session of acupuncture yesterday which I’m really excited about as there have been such incredible results with this Dr, plus started the Chinese herbs.. 6 pills morning and evening – yukkie! Go little eggs go!!
I think now waiting a month and a half is the worst part. Failure makes, well definitely with us, more determined and one just wants to get cracking again . . .
So feeling in a much better space – we were knocked straight back down last night with a friends sms…. I mean what part of “We’re doing IVF” spells “please tell me the second you’re pregnant and how over the moon you are” AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH makes me so mad…. I know and understand that if you haven’t been through an infertility journey that people just don’t get it . . . but really ? Feeling very angry today . . . best hit the gym.
So sorry about your news. Here’s hoping the time off will be useful for preparing your body for the next round. Thinking of you and sending hugs!
Right back at ya xx
I am so sorry. (Hugs.) And I bet your friend told you that because she thinks, like so many people seem to think, that IVF is a sure thing. It was really insensitive, though, and I think that pregnant and parenting friends should probably spare us some of the details about how “over the moon” they are.